Sunsets and Sushi

Depression hasn’t hit me this hard in a long time. I could really use some prayers to whoever reads this. 

Does He truly exist? 

also I like a girl. might consider pursuing. HAHAHAHAHAH OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 

Sometimes, despite everyone around me, I feel lonely. It’s hard finding genuine relationships. I feel exhausted trying to get to know people and have them know me. Truth is, I don’t think I’ve ever had a best friend. Just a lot of…friends. I can get extremely envious of people (whether on TV or in real life) who have a friend they can always hit up or rely on to have fun. Or someone who knows every single thing about them. I don’t really think I have that someone. Truth be told, I find it easier to open up to girls than guys, probably having to do with my past and how I grew up, but that’s another story. Haha this post didn’t mean to be so depressing or sad, but I just felt like venting inside inside of bottling all up inside. Time to watch more Bachelor…HAHAHA. 

I guess I’m back. 

i hate when friendships fade away. one moment we talk each and every day and the next moment, it’s like i never existed. friendships are hard. but jesus is forever. 

struggle-busing hardcore today. i need to snap out of this. 

dang, I’m pathetic. seriously. honestly, why do people even like me? I feel like people put up with me to be honest. sometimes I feel like I don’t really belong. could I actually be an intern? maybe I’m just overanalyzing a situation, but right now, I feel like my head is filling up with lies. pray for me. 

on a side note. please pray for my family, especially my dad. he’s going to have surgery on his arteries and it freaking sucks that I can’t be with him to support him and make sure he’s okay since he’s having it in Hong Kong. I wish I could just take a week off from school and go visit him. I miss my parents…a lot. don’t take for granted for those who are able to see their parents. 

I’m back! After a 2+ years hiatus. Not sure if I remember how to use this…lol